Day 02 → Something you love about yourself.
Day 03 → Something you have to forgive yourself for.
Day 04 → Something you have to forgive someone for.
Day 05 → Something you hope to do in your life.
Day 06 → Something you hope you never have to do.
Day 07 → Someone who has made your life worth living for.
Day 08 → Someone who made your life hell, or treated you like shit.
Day 09 → Someone you didn’t want to let go, but just drifted.
Day 10 → Someone you need to let go, or wish you didn’t know.
Day 11 → Something people seem to compliment you the most on.
Day 12 → Something you never get compliments on.
Day 13 → A band or artist that has gotten you through some tough ass days. (write a letter.)
Day 14 → A hero that has let you down. (letter)
Day 15 → Something or someone you couldn’t live without, because you’ve tried living without it.
Day 16 → Someone or something you definitely could live without.
Day 17 → A book you’ve read that changed your views on something.
Day 18 → Your views on gay marriage.
Day 19 → What do you think of religion? Or what do you think of politics?
Day 20 → Your views on drugs and alcohol.
Day 21 → (scenario) Your best friend is in a car accident and you two got into a fight an hour before. What do you do?
Day 22 → Something you wish you hadn’t done in your life.
Day 23 → Something you wish you had done in your life.
Day 24 → Make a playlist to someone, and explain why you chose all the songs. (Just post the titles and artists and letter)
Day 25 → The reason you believe you’re still alive today.
Day 26 → Have you ever thought about giving up on life? If so, when and why?
Day 27 → What’s the best thing going for you right now?
Day 28 → What if you were pregnant or got someone pregnant, what would you do?
Day 29 → Something you hope to change about yourself. And why.
Day 30 → A letter to yourself, tell yourself EVERYTHING you love about yourself.
As I’ve mentioned, I have a hard time with forgive and forget. I don’t let things go, anyone who knows me at all will tell you that. So when someone does something that hurts me I have a very hard time moving on, especially if it’s someone that I really love.
No relationship is perfect and that definitely includes my relationship with Dustin. I try pretty hard to not talk about anything negative in our relationship because I feel like that’s between just us. So without going into detail, there are a few things I know I need to forgive Dustin for. In fact, in my card to him on our anniversary I told him that this year I want to work at getting over the stuff in our past so that we can concentrate on our present and future.
For me, that feels like easier said than done. I want nothing more than to be able to forgive him and move on. I hate that certain things still plague me and I know it drives Dustin crazy. I’m the person who will bring past issues into whatever argument we’re having. And I don’t want to be that way. I know that in order for our marriage to work I need to get over these things. And I know that I am not perfect either and I’ve done things too. How can I expect him to forgive me when I can’t do the same?
Today on my blog I want to say that I am going to try my very best to forgive Dustin for what’s happened in the past. I will try my best to not bring the past into future arguments. I can’t make promises because I am not perfect.
But I will try my hardest.